Hmm..Environment can do wonders to the mood around us.Weird,but somehow,when its about 3 in the morning,with Teh Cino as our drinks,and just a normal kopitiam or void deck,it somehow make us share our problem with.For me and my best friends anyways.And every single time this happens,it get me thinking.Sometimes the same things,sometimes a whole other topic of life.And this time,somehow I realize how important my parents are. Labels: ..yet feelings are there
Sure,I complain a lot about them,maybe even shout and scold them.I guess thats what puberty is all about.For now,sure,we would be constantly piss off at our mom or dad,but do we really hate them? The 2 people who raise us up,gave us shelter,food and the feeling of love whereby no other person in the universe could give? Thinking back,I realize how stupid I was to be angry at them for just a small thing.Yea,I will constantly do it without realizing it.Thats just how life goes,no matter how hard you try to control your anger,it will be release one way or another,no matter if its you parents or not.
Just hanging out at Changi Village kopitiam,me and my friends kinda talked about family and stuff.And somehow,I realize how my dad and my mom are random.They would sometime buy things for me just for the fun of it.And at that point of time,I realize how parents would go around anywhere,and always think about their children.Like when they are buying shoes,if they see something nice,they would sometimes buy it and think back,"hey,my son can fit this,so why not buy it?"
I guess everyone of us should think back and be thankful for whatever our parents had done.I dunnoe how my life would be without my mom and dad.
Thanks mom,thanks dad.
Eddy Outs..
Been hearing this particular song by Ne-yo feat Fabulous titled How I Do. Labels: You know what it means..Saturday, January 17, 2009
Its kinda catchy,but since i sucks in computer stuff,don't really know how to put in the song to the blog,so here's the lyrics instead.Haha
Ne-Yo Feat Fabulous - How I Do
We back at it baby
its loso in case you ain't know so
that boy Ne-yo
Chill out shorty we do this
You see i met her at a party the album release
I told her i switch dates like the album release
and when it come to the style im a beast
swagga is crazy
I should be in a asylum at least
& uhm I'm a gentleman I open the doors
so i'm opin in more than Oprah at 4
I does my thing and i hope you do yours
Cuz my shit is so dope
you wont cope with withdrawal?
They like nope we want more
Shorty i could sell it like i tell it
i should open a store
But i don't do the drama
really think ima come blow it up like a suicide bomba
might give you a wink
might send you a drink
Could be nothing
It might be what you think
And either way it play im still loso
had to give it to you baby
in case you didn't know so
Aghhhhh
Ive got a few different women
Told you from the beginning
Girl don't act brand new
I tried to be honest said if so tell me why you trippin
you know how i do
why you callin screamin bout some place that i was seen in with somebody else
you really need to get a hold of yourself girl
heyyy
If you're asking me if i was out with a little sexy thing in a tight red dress
well if you must know the answers yes
riddle me this
When we started chillin
didn't i say that i aint willin to be your boyfriend
Take it or leave
riddle me that
If i kept it real & you said you wanted me still
So why the hell are you screamin at me
About the fact that
Ive got a few different women
Told you from the beginning
Girl don't act brand new
I tried to be honest said if so tell me why you trippin
You know how i do
ohhh heyy
Did i say anything to you
When i spotted you with some dude
From around your way
i saw you just the other day
yeee
no didn't even mess wit it
Cuz real talk ain't my business
You ain't my lady
Do you thing play how you play
riddle me this
If you be out havin fun
kickin it with this one that one
& i don't give you no flack about that girl
Riddle me that
If i don't get in your stuff
baby wont you tell me what
Gives you the right to be all on my back
about the fact that
Ive got a few different women
Told you from the beginning
Girl don't act brand new
I tried to be honest said if so tell me why you trippin
you know how i do
Oh baby let me break it down
Its all about honesty
So baby girl why you wanna trip on me
said Its all about honesty
I kept it real
I kept it real girl
You wanna run in these streets
Wanna run in these street
but don't be mad when you see me
Said its all about honesty
I kept it real
Yea,so if you want the song,I do have it. The lyrics is awesome.
I'm awesome!
Eddy Outs..
I really don't get it.Not a single thing seems to make sense right now.Maybe I did a mistake,maybe its not even my fault.I don't know.But one thing for sure,its starting to piss me off.I can't count how many million times I've said to people,I rather hear things straightforward,straight to my face.But I guess,some people may not have the guts to do it.Like I've said before,whats the point of backstabbing? Whats the point of talking behind someone's back? It just gets freaking annoying.Somewhat like a fly.Guess we really can't trust anyone these days huh. Labels: May not be who they are...Wednesday, January 14, 2009
What does it take to make someone to get off your back? Honestly,I've been thinking this for quite a long time.Sometimes I just wanna say get the hell out of my life!!!
Just shout it straight to the person's face and get it over with.Its been months since it happened,so get over it.No need to be so emotional about it,coz in the end it won't happen.Whatever it is that you want won't,let me emphasize on the WON'T,happen.Not in a million years,not in the next million decades.Not even if you're the last girl on earth,coz honestly,I don't love you as someone who's special.You're just another friend I got k.
I guess I'm being too harsh.I just can't take it anymore.Friends seems to be enemies,and enemies are just making things worse.I guess its falling apart.Somehow in my head,I thought things would go smoothly just like that,but obstacles still comes.Maybe its me,maybe I did something to piss them all,to piss nature off.But I rather have it right in front of me.For once in my life,I want someone to step up to me and tell me what it is that they despise or what it is that I did to piss them off.Sure,it would be painful,but its better for me,coz if its my fault,I can change.Haiz..
Eddy Outs..
Sometimes,certain things have a meanings towards it.Like the elders seems to say,each dream have a meaning towards it,be it good or bad.Sometimes even out of the blue of a normal day,we just have a very bad feeling,and if we follow it,things goes smoothly,if not,somehow things just go bad.This is what people call the 6th sense,or what usually meant as instinct.We follow our instinct,either good or bad.If its good,we'll be thankful and trust our instinct,but if its bad,we just learn from our mistake,and try to make the same mistake again.Thats just how life goes,either we make a decision or we already have decision,only thing is,whether we follow it or not. Labels: ..For its what I amTuesday, January 13, 2009
Somehow,hearing a song by Ne-Yo,Title : How I Do,made me think over and over again.It was my instinct to be honest and just move on with life.I guess in the back of my head,I know that there won't be going anywhere if I continued the so-called relationship.Its like placing water and fire together,its either the water boil up or the fire dies.Thats just how I feel.At the same time,I have others around me.Not saying that I'm a player or anything like that,just that I'm showing that I'm not ready for any serious relationship at that point of time.Maybe I did the wrong thing at that point of time,but I didn't regret it coz I followed my instinct.
It gets to the point whereby,sometimes its better to move on rather than wait.Like many times I heard,it takes 2 hands to clap.No one hand can clap on its own.I realize that sometimes,life can't always go your way.You can't get everything you want,or even anyone you want.In reality,life actually sucks.People hate you,people like you,people talk behind you,people rob you,people just do stuff you don't like.Yet,there's nothing much you can do.Coz you know thats just the way life is.Its just best to accept it and move on.No point of finding the end of a rainbow for a pot of gold,coz it won't be there.Move on,plz.
Eddy Outs..
Finally the NP Open House is over.3 Days of walking up and down really gives you something to sleep on,though I still sleep around 1+ most of the time.Overall it wasn't that bad,had a few laughs here and there,though I lost 40 bucks just like that.Crowd wasn't all that bad,though some just gets on your nerves sometimes.It doesn't matter actually,just that enjoying the 3 days is the most important part. Labels: Noone's PerfectSunday, January 11, 2009
Been thinking lately,who can we really trust in this world? Looking around,you can hear people talking behind each others back like its just a normal day activity.Yet,when they see the person they are bitching bout,all of them act normal and sudden friendliness is seen.I guess what I'm trying to say is that,it's very hard to find true friends,those who accept you for who you are,and tell it straight to you if they don't like your attitude or something.Let me ask a question.Would you turn on your bestest best of friend just becoz you find out,lets say,he eats glue and everyone hates him for that?
Honestly in my opinion,what does that matter? I mean you don't turn on your true friend,who trust you and been there for you every single time,just becoz of one stupid thing.From my past experience,real friends are hard to find.To be honest,out of the 10 friends you have,only 1 will stick by you and be there whenever you need them.Think about it before making a judgement call about someone,you'll never know that person might save you one day.
Eddy Outs
So,its been like how many months since I updated this blog? Guess been too busy with sleeping in the day,and out at night.Still having sleeping difficulties as usual.Sickening,but hey,thats how I go.Monday, January 5, 2009
2009 huh.Here,so fast.Seems like yesterday 2008 started,well,not really,but you catch my drift.Guess,looking back,there were a million things I'm not proud of doing.Hurting people here and there.I apologize to those I hurt,and sorry again for any mistake in the future.I'm still only human.There are a million things in my head,thoughts coming in and out like a train.Guess,throughout last year,I learned a lot of things.Whether mentally,emotionally or even physically,there were experiences I had that sucks,that brought happiness.But one thing for sure,last year was where I really saw my true friends.The ones who irritate me,the ones who bug me,the ones who actually care enough to hang out with me till late at night.Guess,one thing I have to say,thanks for being there bro.
Anyways,been thinking lately,so what if its new year? Doesn't mean I have to change for it.But still,as usual me being fickle minded,I guess I did change throughout 2008.Maybe people do notice,maybe they don't.It doesn't matter does it.As long as I feel great bout myself,why should i care right.Maybe all this experiences actually change me to become more optimistic.In one way,theres a change right there.
Honestly,on my mind,I'm still kinda afraid of what the future brings.What if I fail in life? What if I won't make it in school? What if I'll turn into a junkie? What if I won't even survive another day? If its for someone else,yea,it'll be worth it to just leave this Earth,this Planet,this Life.But what if I die because of stupid things? I guess,it doesn't really matter.Whatever is coming will come no matter what,I'll just have to face it one way or another.Right?
Eddy Outs..