Heyz..Eddy Here..So fast time pass by...Seems like ytd that 2007 started..Now we are juz entering 2008..Haiz..Seems to me that 2007 juz moved too fast..Didnt even feel it..
So let me recap the things that happened in 2007 that really made me feel happy..
Hmm..
February 14 2007 - Valentines Day
She accepted me..And so it goes on till now..:D
Around February - March or so
FOC camp...The fun in Nursing started there..Also the place where I meet most of my poly friends :)
Bah..Actually thats the onli 2 I can remember..The rest are juz a blur..Somehow when you're in poly,times juz goes on too fast..Next thing I'll know is that I'm in my PRCP session and year 1 was juz a history that happened..Haiz
Kinda depressing knowing that we're growing older by the minute..All the fun and laughter are about to end and its all about making money,thinking about the future and all..Adults are juz way to depressing to talk about..Life goes on though,no matter what happen..
So,today is New Year's Eve..Tonight at 12 midnight,its gonna be 1st Jan 2008..And we're all 1 year older unofficially..Sucks to some,great to others..Anyone have any new year's resolution they wanna share?
Well,mine will always be the same..Live Life To The Fullest
Tonight maybe gonna go countdown..But kinda no mood..Everything seems to be messy..Everyone is busy elsewhere..Noone to hang out with..Even I'm too lazy to hang out with some of my frends..Haiz..
Whats wrong with me? I dun knw..Maybe becoz some ppl are too bz about work..Haiz..
O well,I guess all I'm saying is that I'm sick and tired of having to wait..Alryte than..Thats it,might as well rot at home..
Eddy Outs...
Rotting
Heyz...So yea,back again with nothing much to write...So much time but juz too lazy to type on the bloody keyboard..Hahakz..Yea3,I know I'm lazy..Sunday, December 23, 2007
So here we go again,attachments and all..Sianz la..Beenz quite bz with attachments..Since keep having afternoon shift last week..So sian..=_="
But at least got ppl to disturb you knw...Without these ppl,there won't be any fun..Haha..Thx to Kelvin,Hazel and Aini..Lols..Sry to disturb you guys la...But nothing better to do mah..:D
So yea,Hari Raya Haji over,nothing much happened except the usual slacking and rotting at home..Juz too tired to go out coz the day before got attachment...Then christmast coming soon..Oh wait,2 more days onli..And the thing thats bloody great is that :
1) Nana family outing..and she invite me..And I'm kinda paisey
2) On the same day,my cousin is getting engaged
So which the hell am I gonna go? Unless goin for the bbq on Monday,which is tmr..Den straight after that on Tuesday go to my Uncle's place..Hmm...Thats an idea..But still nid to go home ferst and bath la...Dun wan to go smelly2..Haha
Bah,tmr den plan..Now too lazy to plan..Tmr still got attachment summore..Wah RAN!!!!
Sian2..Still havent do my case study..Die la..
Oh well..Tmr morning still got time..So nvm..hahaha..Lazy fucker..:D
Hmm,have you ever wonder y sometimes there's this feeling of emptyness..Its like,theres no one around you eventhough you're in a crowd..All you see is darkness eventhough the bloody lights are on? Bah..Dunnoe la...Seems to have this feelings..Yes honey,its related to you..Coz I feel this way when you're not around..Somehow,someone's always bz and all..Can't even reply a msg when eating ryte? Yea,thanks a lot..
Eddy Out..
Sian,Bored,Blah3
nana here...jus wanna tell u dat the more u hurt yourself,the more that i will get hurt...if you wanna see me suffer than im fine with it...ill do anything jus for u cause i really luv u...i had never even thought of letting you go...watever you wanna think...jus stop thinking what you have done...its jus a small matter..nothing would change my mind...nomatter what im happy to be always by your side.love u dear..Saturday, December 15, 2007
nana out...
luv u than ever...
Heyz..Eddy Here...Thursday, December 13, 2007
Haiz..Dunnoe whats wrong with me..There are things which I myself dun understand..
Looking back on the things i've done..I regret...Coz everytyme I do or say something,u get hurt..I knw u wan me to tell you,but everytyme i do,it makes things even worse..I guess its better that i keep things inside..Its better for me to be hurt rather than me hurting u as well..I'm sorie for everything by..
You deserve someone berrer than me..All i do is make u cry..All I do is hurt you..But one thing that i won't deny...I really love you and noone can replace u in my life..You showed me something that I nvr knew I could get..Your love,the way u talk to me,the way u kissed me..Hw i wish it would last forever...Plz by,please dun leave me..If there is something I did wrong,juz tell me..Coz I don't want to repeat the same mistake twice..And I dun wanna hurt you..Nt ever..
THe cut on my hand is nt as painful as it is seeing you cry...The pain is nothing compared to that..Hw I wish i could turn back time..I love you and forever will..
Eddy Outs..
Pain...
nana here...Tuesday, December 11, 2007
well...now at eddy's house...
i seems like i still don't really know whats in his mind rite now...
we just came back from ecp then i head back to his house...
and here i am typing on the blog..just dont really understand...
is it because of jealousy???maybe????
who knows...i don't know..rite now i wanna give u the answer to your ques...
how i had much more memos with you when im happy with padi..
its because u are the person that always make me laugh..all the happy moments and memories...thats why i have more memories with you...you make me smile and you are always there for me last time...and now u are still right beside me...what i have to say more????u know the answer....i really luv u....and i wanna say thank you sooo much for spending the whole night with me..im sorry to make u worried last night...just wanna say that i really lup u!!!
nana out
Heyz..Eddy here..Juz got home from the bank..Dunnoe whats on my mind,juz can't seem to think clearly..One of those times I guess..Depression is coming to town..And it sucks..Silence is all that keeps me accompany..Theres juz some things I wanna let out..Thursday, December 6, 2007
Been having these weird dreams..You were there..He was there..You know who he is..And I cried yesterday becoz of what you said..You had the same exact dream,and it scares me..I know it was juz a dream..And ytd I read your diary,and I don't understand it..Hw could you have the most memories with me when you're so happy with Padi..Hw can I ever be more than him when he had your heart..I know its the past and I know we're together now..But it scares me..I can't slip peacefully..Especially after reading your last entry in your diary..Haiz..
I know we're happy now..And yes I'm happy too..But like I said before..Happiness last onli during the moments..I can't change how I am inside..Its juz who I am..The same old moody,depressed,sadded Eddy since last time..I may look happy outside..But onli those who I'm close to understands..
Ryte now,noone is home..Juz sitting alone waiting for time to pass me by..I can't wait to meet you..Honestly,how I wish you didn't work..But thats juz unfair..Oh well..As long as you enjoy your work and you're happy with it,I'm happy too..I guess I'm juz being selfish when I get angry with you for not contacting me..
Bah,its the past..No point in thinking bout it..Move on Eddy,it alrdy happened no point of being this way..Forget it,you alrdy forgive her..Let it be!!
Hmm..Nothing much to update actually,everyones busy with attachment,work and sch..So all I do is stay at home and stone..Thats all I do nowadays..Not eating much,I dunnoe why..Juz don't seem to feel hungry..How I wish ryte now is my attachment..At least got something better to do..Bah..
Eddy Outs..
Moodless,Bored,Missing you..
Heyz..Eddy here..Well,been a while since Nana n me update,so here's an update from me..Hmm..Exams over finally,holidays and attachments coming..Oh crap,forgot to ask my dad for 30 bucks for hep B last jab...Bah..Nvm,lets get back to what I wanna say..Hmm,yea,2 weeks of holiday and 2 weeks of attachments..Hmmm..Not that bad if I get paid for my attachments..Sad..Saturday, December 1, 2007
School wise,nothing much...Everyone turned a year older..Hahakz..Thanks to Mahathir and Ayu the most for making it fun in Nursing..Thx guys! Yea,there are SOME bitches..Everywhere also got mah,so not surprising..But can't take it when there are still immature kids there..Not saying that I'm so mature or anything..Juz those attention-seeking,money-minded,dumblonde-wannabe types..Can't stand those types..
Relationship wise,hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.............Turning out to be GREAT!!! Lols..Sry for the long "hmm..." coz now very bored la..Seriously turning out better than ever..Juz a few small fights here and there..But its all good,quareling and fighting is normal in a relationship..Been spendin quite a lot of time together..Not today tho,nana got dunnoe wat at skewl plus she work..Haiz..Why today I not working..Sianz..
An old frend came back to Silat!!! WOOTS!! Yea..so fun to have him back..But sad coz he came back on the wrong time..Everything are juz turning wrong there,even I wanted to quit bcoz of it..But hey,one thing I learned,there's a solution to everything...And its true...:D
Well,here's a song which I thought was nice..The lyrics somehow have something in common with me..So yea,juz change the he to a she aight :p
Teardrops On My Guitar - Taylor Swift
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cuz It's so damn funny*****
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
CHORUS
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause
REPEAT CHORUS
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The Only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing don't know why I do
He's the time taken up but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into...
Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
Eddy Outs..
Smilling for real for once...