Life goes on fast.And every single steps we take,taught us something.Every time I look back,I kind of appreciated every steps I've taken.Each and every single mistakes surely brings consequences,but it also brings us a lesson which we'll never forget.Sometimes,I really wonder what my life would be like if I took a different path.Instead of turning right,I turned left.Would it make a lot of differences? Would it change who I am right now? Labels: ..things changes, people changes
There are millions of what if in my head.Such as what if I never joined nursing in ngee ann,would things be different? Will the people around me be different? Will I be different? Certain aspects of life brings us joy,while certain things give us depression,sadness.But every single time this occurs,it just makes us stronger.We learn by moving on and making mistakes,its true.Looking back at my life,I do regret at some of the mistakes I've done,but when I think about it,its a good thing that I did it.
I learned and try my very best to prevent history to repeat itself.Nothing can change the past,but the future is still untold.From all the experiences I've been through,people I meet,people who broke my heart,I learned new things.Yea sure,most of the time its too late to realise the mistake.But by not realising,it actually sink deep in our head,and we keep it in our heart everywhere we go.I may not be qualified to preach or teach,those older than I am have gone through more experiences.I'm just speaking my mind,helping if I can.I may not be the best of god's slave,but I try to be as much as I can.
Eddy Outs..
Somehow,everywhere you go,no matter in school,work,or just during attachments,theres these type of people.At least 1 or 2 of them.The type of people who the higher ranking people just adores because they suck up a lot.No matter what you do to prove them that these people are not what they think,it just bites you in the ass back.Seriously,how unfair is that? You work your ass everyday and these people just talk to the boss and BAM! they get their names praised.Sickening,seriously. Labels: ..Which pisses me offThursday, August 28, 2008
Bus ride to IMH gives me a lot of time to think.And also just enough time for me to sleep.There's just something that I need to let go.Like the fact that I'll never get her,or the fact that I'm not ready for another mishap relationship.Somehow,no matter who's there,I'll just go with the flow,except when I'm with her.There's just something about her that makes me melt,makes me a bit off guard.Maybe this crush is not a crush anymore.I just turned it into a major problem.There's no one I can put the blame on except myself.
Thinking back,people can manipulate others to get what they want.Its really sickening.Using someone just to get something for themselves.I learned this yesterday in IMH.No,not thru the patient,but thru one of my attachment mate.It just pissed me off.To think that I could be fooled by his stupid words.Haiz.If it was the patient,I wouldn't be surprise,but my own attachment mate? Sickening,seriously.
Damn,been using these words way to often.
Eddy Outs
So having attachments now.6 weeks of miserable no pay attachment.Good thing I have a part time job.But somehow,I constantly see people saving their own ass,no matter in school or at work.1 by 1 they just starts saving their own ass while others suffer and just keep quiet.I don't understand these people.Haiz.. Labels: ..For Her..Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Bit down lately.Somehow,I kinda miss that girl.Now that she's moving to another outlet,kinda makes me sad coz can't really meet her you know.Guess thats how work life is huh.People literally come and go.Good thing I have attachments to keep me busy during the weekdays,and of course work during the weekend.Just wishing that the time pass by faster.
One thing for sure,IMH is one boring place to work.You'll just slack like nobody business.Somehow deep in my heart,I just hope that one person makes the place chaotic.Just so that I have something to do.Evil,I know.But seriously,its the most boring attachment,even worse than during year 1 where we go to Polyclinic and so on.
Maybe,just maybe,asking her out would be nice.
Eddy Outs
I don't really know what I want.Somehow I'm too fickle minded.Sure,its better to be loved by someone rather than chasing after someone you love,but is it fair to that person if you don't really have feelings for her? It takes 2 hands to clap,and somehow its not mine who's clapping.The more I think about it,the more I worry.I don't want to be those people who treated me that way.I know how it feels,and I really don't want her to have that kind of feelings.It sucks,seriously. Labels: ..Too much is goin on..Sunday, August 24, 2008
On the other hand,work somehow gives me something,or rather someone who has always been my eye candy.What can I say,she just have the cute girl face.Kinda makes me think of dating her.But hey,I'm not one to be that open.Yet,as per normal,she don't know anything.Nor does she takes any hint.Oh well,life still moves on right?
Getting myself occupied is kinda good actually.I don't really think much that way.The only thing I always think about would be the problem that arises and the solutions.But somehow,it doesn't get my mind of things that I usually think about.My surroundings are still all the same.Typical things still happens and being busy doesn't help me from not noticing it.Kinda irritating,but bearing with it is the only thing I can do.As much as I like noticing stuff,it really gets on my nerve sometimes.Sickening isn't it.
Eddy Outs..
You know,looking around,there are so many things that is interesting about this beautiful country of ours.Plus,watching tv,there is something missing in the Discovery Channel.The documentary of Singapore.It would be cool.Seriously.Imagine this,walking around with the camera and just telling the world about how "cool" our country is.Let me tell you a few stuffs that won't be missed. Labels: Ain't It Great?Thursday, August 21, 2008
1st of all,the one and only country that these kind of animals exist in,the Mats,Minahs,Bengs and Lians! Anywhere and everywhere! You name it,they're there. Like mosquitoes. Just walking with their so-called cool walk,arms flying here and there like they're blind and need to check for walls. One magnificent species of human kind that can only be found in Singapore.
2ndly,the all legendary 8th wonders of the world.Paris have Eifel Tower,California have The Golden Bridge,India have the Taj Mahal,well our country is as good,coz we have the ERP gantry! WOoHoo. You know how people awe and have their mouth open at the Eifel Tower,well,our mouth open too when we see the amount of money we have to pay just by driving under this wonders of the world.So cool isn't it?
3rdly,and the last sneak preview would be,having the best attitude in the world. Well,we all know how Japanese are very respectful to each other and all right,and the Americans are all open minded,well,our country is the same. We have our own typical attitude of Kiasu-ness. You'll see how peopl push each other just to board public transport,queuing up just to get free stuff,how they fight just because of a sale.How wonderful is our beautiful country yea?
Well,catch more of it soon.Once I get a camera,a writer,a cameraman,and well,actors and actreses are not needed since we have a lot of those in our country.Haha.
Eddy Outs.
Though down with fever,down with flu,down with whatever diseases there are in this world,there's just 1 thing that I can't miss.The last paper for exams.And so,it came and went just like that.With me coming out of the room cursing at every detail of the paper.Literally sickening exams are.Can't believe I came down with fever on the last paper.Forget it,its over. Labels: starts again, YetWednesday, August 20, 2008
Somehow,I'm just going with the flow.School,friends and even work.Its like,I stop caring about anything.Maybe due to the things I went through for the past couple years.Weird,but hey,its alright.Nothing to lose at all.And to think that people are making up stories about me.Don't this people have a life? Get a life.Idiots.
Nothing much to update,just not looking forward to 6 weeks of attachment.Plus after the 6 weeks attachment,I'm left with 1 week holidays.So,most probably gonna enjoy the whole week.Don't know go where,but heck,I won't be staying home at all! Sickening.
Thats it,maybe update soon if things come to my mind.
Eddy Outs
Looking back,how funny it was during secondary sch days.Hanging out doing stupid stuff,just trying to make trouble for the fun of it.Hanging out with my friends,memories about the past entertained us till 6 in the morning.How we talked and laugh at our stupid moments.It was fun,enjoyable at most.So one topic lead to another,and we came to the thinking. Labels: ..a bitchSunday, August 17, 2008
Will all of those group of friends be the same in 5 years time? Will me and friends be hanging out together in 5 years times and think back about our life? Will we even contact each other in the future? Maybe some will still hang out together like those uncles at the kopitiam,just drinking tea/coffee while talking bout their life.
Thus,from one topic to another.How demanding life is now.Back in secondary we be thinking,it doesn't matter if we fail,just chiong for O'lvl.And now in poly,its just different.There's nothing to look forward to chiong to.You can't just think,ouh,nvm,exam if fail still got time to retake.Sickening seriously this world.Somehow,its way to demanding as you move on.Its too much to the extend that the rich are getting richer,the poor are getting poorer.
You look around,it use to be no money,still can live.Now,its like no money,no life.Use to be having a family is top priority.Now,money is the top priority.Without any money,theres no point of having a family,coz you can't support them.Everywhere you go,money comes first.Transport,house,food etc.Nothing in this world comes without money.Haiz..
Somehow living is much more difficult that dying.Sickening ain't it and yet people are afraid to die.
Eddy Outs.
You know hw public transport can be such a bitch everyday.First of all,it seems that queue-ing up just don't matter anymore.Especially to old brats like the nyonyas and apeks.Sure they say respect your elders and all,and I do.I really do.But that doesn't mean you can just take advantage of it and push me aside just to get into the god damn bus which is full.Not only these old people,even the mid-30s does that.They would just come from out of nowhere and suddenly board the bus without caring about the people who actually bothers to queue up.It really piss me off.Thursday, August 14, 2008
2ndly,when the bus is fucking full,why bother boarding and pushing? Whats the point?? Not only that,but those people who are at the back,if there's a fucking big space,just move in.Give others a chance to board the freaking moving box.It doesn't hurt anyone if you move in and don't talk with your frends during a bus ride.You won't die of loneliness.Sheesh.
To those who are freakingly rude,you can fuck off.Seriously.Stop stepping on peoples leg and pushing people aside.And for god sake,don't press the freaking bell if you're not stopping at the nex bus stop.It'll just waste other peoples time.Haiz.Somehow,Singaporeans are either too kiasu,or just plain freaking rude!
This time around just mostly complains.It really gets on my nerve.Especially students who hog the front part of the bus just becoz their frends are sitting.Sickening,seriously.
Oh yea,Fiq turn 18 today!! Happy Birthday Bro!! Hope you liked the cake! Though it was last mins work,but hope you enjoy it yea!! Finally someone LEGAL!! Still waiting for mine though.Sickening.
Eddy Outs
Wondering why people bitch at all? Better word for it is backstabbing each other.Its like whats the point? What do you get by bitching about each other? Does it solve any problems or dispute that you guys have? One thing for sure is,the purpose of talking behind someone's back is called bitching is because that person is a fucking bitch.Am I right? Who cares.. Labels: You Don't Fucking Know Me..Monday, August 11, 2008
I mean,for god sake,they can be whoever they want to be.These people can do whatever they want to.Yea,sure,maybe you don't like whatever they do,whatever they say.But the fact is,you can't expect everyone to be the same as you.To have the same thinking,to have the same behaviour as you.Most probably these people who listens to you just agree with you because they just couldn't be bothered.I mean c'mon,not everyone feels the same way as you.So my onli question is why bitch at all? You don't have any purpose in it,you can't do anything with it,you're just making sins as you go along,and bottom line is,you just have nothing better to do in life so you make yourself feel better by making people look down on others.
Somehow,I pity these kind of people.They don't want others to look down on their pathetic life,so they look down on others instead.Making up stories as they go along,giving their opinion when not needed.Who are these people to judge others when they themselves have problems of their own? I mean,no one is perfect.This leads to the stupid sentence,"Noone is perfect.I'm Noone." I agree actually.You guys are NOONE.Not one of is somebody in anyone's life.So,don't try to act like your life is so damn perfect and that everyone deserve to be bitched by you.Bottomline is,get a fucking life.
Eddy Outs
A constant question many asked me.Would you rather go after someone who you love or would you go for someone who love you? Somehw,things are turning to the point where I rather choose goin with someone you love. Yea sure,maybe you won't have the feelings for her,but who knows,things might turn out better. Labels: Rather flow..
Like I've said to my friend,if that person loves you,and who knows you might love her/him back,that'll be a bonus wouldn't it?
Maybe things will work out for the better.Seeing how screwed up my love life been,somehow if the chance come,maybe I'll gor for it.Maybe I won't have the same feelings for her,or things will change and I'll have the same feelings for her.Who knows,things might change.For a pessimist,I'm quite optimist. :D
Haiz.It sucks doesn't it when you think of hw life would be in the future? No more hangin out,no more living a fun life due to all the problems,all the family planning.Time is going way to fast.I just wish one day time will stop for me to catch up and do what ever I want in this world.Learning to surf,parachuting,most of the extreme sports.Den onli will I die a happy man.Who knows,life is so short,I might just die tmr.
Eddy Outs..
Woke up due to the sun shining directly on my face.No wonder I'm turning darker everyday.Didn't know what to do at all.Too lazy to study BCLS.No point since I'm failing everything anyways.But that doesn't mean I'm giving up.Once I studied things might change.:D Labels: VERYFriday, August 8, 2008
Parents went to Malacca already.Left me and my 2nd bro.But I won't enjoy since gonna work today till sunday.Heck,at least I won't be bored at home you know.
Ever heard of tomorrow is a brand new day and all? I guess for me its just bullshit.Sure,its another typical day with different things goin on,but all in all its all the same in the end.Its either you enjoy ur day as usual,or just think its boring and nothing eventful happened.Sure,there will be a day whereby a big event occur and you'll enjoy urself on that day,but the thing is,is it memorable?
Did something occur that make you remember a day like that? So many lines been said,such as you'll never know who migh change your life.Blah3.Eventually no one can really change your life unless it's you yourself.If you want your life to continue the way it is,den it won't change.If you want your life to be something different,I guess its just time to change whatever you're doing.Get a life,do something you enjoy doing instead of making things worse for yourself.
Damn my blog is all messed up.Doesn't matter.
Eddy Outs
As I suspected.Things in my life can never be so easy and the way.Every single time this occurs.Somehow when things gets better,it will just turn to the worse the next moment.Just when you thought the storm was over,here comes the freaking cyclone.Why can't I just lead a life without any freaking problems that make me so fucking low at all times.Just when I thought my life is turning brighter.But NO,it just have to make a turn instead and go back to the fucking dark areas.Can't things in my life just turn for the better.Sickening. Labels: And they stay very long.Thursday, August 7, 2008
Life goes on in every single way.There's nothing I can do except live this freaking life and die.So far,there was never that really peaceful days in my life.Problems after problems always appears,non-stop.Its like MTV Non-stop Hits onli difference is mine is not a show and they're not even songs.And people wonder hw I can still smile and joke around.Answer is,thats the onli thing I can do to stop my mind from thinking too much about all these craps.
Sickening isn't it.I know there are people out there who have more problems than me.I'm not being self-centered or anything,its just that this is one place where I ge t to let out my mind.Though it will still come back and haunt me,at least I feel a bit better.I realli mean a bit by literally a bit.Till I get over this stupid curse,I won't feel any better.Humour is the onli way I can show,the real me can never come out.
Eddy Outs
Weird dreams yesterday.Since its the ghost festival thing,maybe thats the cause of my scary shit dream.Plus to make things worse,was sick.Had high fever and sore throat.Luckily was better after a freaking long rest.Though I woke up with my back aching.Shouldn't have slept in a prawn shape.Haiz.. Labels: Life Goes On..Wednesday, August 6, 2008
Still wondering whether things are real or not.Somehow I get the thinking that my mind is playing tricks on me.Showing me things that I would love to see.And all thats been happening are not real.I'm just dreaming all this and the real me is still asleep just waiting for morning to come so that I'll wake up.Hmm..
Weird thing about humans actually.When things are turning up on the bright side,they do not believe it.And when things are getting worse by the second,they just wish it was a dream.Such a typical things amongst human.Yes,I'm typical.Well,actually what I'm trying to say is that somehow we're not always contented to what we have.We look around and we're always not happy with things.I see people sitting down on the bus while others are standing and they complaining bout hw uncomfortable the seats are.I see people complaining about their food and wasting it away while others out there are starving and will give anything for what we have.I guess its time we should be happy with what we got and stop thinking about what we don't have.
Eddy Outs
NSL paper made me looked down upon.Stupid lecturer.One thing I wanna point out to everyone,if that person constantly slack and never attend classes,doesn't mean he's stupid or don't know how to any questions.What kind of question is "Finish already? SO fast? Got write anything or not??".Especially from a lecturer.I was kinda ok at ferst but when I think about it,many people kinda look down on me.Yea,sure I never usually study,and I skip classes.But that doesn't mean I DON'T STUDY AT ALL! Get in straight in your head,if I today was the ferst time I studied,hw the hell did I reach Year 2.No,better as,how the hell do I even reached poly.People nowadays. Labels: And there they go again...Tuesday, August 5, 2008
Ok,those aside.Exams are coming way too fast.And I'm kinda not prepared as usual.Kinda irritating when you know that you don't have any holidays even after your exams.How pathetic is that? Everyone enjoying all they can outside,while you're stuck inside a crappy ward working for free.Its not really fair as we do basically the same job the nurses are doing,yet they get paid.Hw is that fair for us?? At least a few bucks per hour is worth it.Even 10 bucks per hour is nt enough la.Come on,we practically work our asses of like a normal nurse,at least give us pay.Don't give us the crap of getting a bond and all.Its not worth it and you guys know it.Plus they do not take everybody,so why even bother.Yea,sure we get a large sum of money every month,but hey,be fair to those who do not get any money at all.Thats all I'm saying,at least PAY US!!
Sometimes I wonder if things are there just to taunt me.For once in my life,I just want everyone around me to tell what is it that they want.I had enough of playing games and figuring things out on my own.It really gets irritating when the answers you get are wrong and made things worse.Sickening,seriously.Things just doesn't go the way you want it do they.Haiz..
Eddy Outs
Looking back at my past,it suddenly hits me.Everything happened in a blink of an eye.Primary,secondary,and nw poly.Soon enough it'll be my graduation and I'm out working and waiting to serve NS.Sickening.As usual,was in the bus when this thought came.Am I ready for the future? Bloody hell,I'm already in year 2 and I'm still like this.The future holds to much,NS,working life,marriage (though I'm kinda hoping it'll wait)and more problems with money.Sunday, August 3, 2008
Looking around,I really hope to live somewhere else.The standard of living here is just too high for me.Use to be very easy without all these ERP system and tax and blah3.Now its all about the money.You can't live anywhere without money in this country.Plus things are gettin so expensive around here.Use to be $10 was a lot of money for students.Now,$10 is nothing much,sometimes it may even be not enough.Haiz.
Kind of depressing staying here.Even taking public transport can be depressing.Though now that I've gotten my student ezlink back,so,kinda enjoying the concession.Haha.Work has been fun.Now that Shafiq is working with me.Tired as usual,but hey,every single work is tired.Its just a matter of worth it or nt.All in all,doing great!
Eddy Outs