Seems to me that time really moves very fast.Wake up and it was only monday,and now its alrdy saturday night.School and work really takes up a lot of time.Deep inside,I kinda actually liked it.But then to think again,I want to spend all the time doing something rather than being stuck with sch and work.Miss hanging out with my friends,and just sit somewhere or go out somewhere to hang out and talk.Though,I do hang out with some of them most of the time.Haha. Labels: ..Lies the truth
Being bored seems the 1 thing I'm really good at.Woke up and I already feel bored.I guess what i really want is an adventure.Something new to do other than the same old stuff.Work is starting to get boring though most of them treat me good.Yet,there's the politic going on and i just don't get it.Why start something when there's just no apparent reason for it.Kinda stupid actually.Me and fiq talked about it and we rambled on for about 2hrs,just exchanging views.Seems to me that we have the same view about stuff most of the time.Maybe due to what we had been through since secondary.
Seems to me,there's always a hidden reason behind every action.Why go through all the trouble making up stuff when a person can just say it out.Asking a favor or something.I mean its much easier rather than beating around the bushes,making up story before finally showing the true reason.Stupid isn't it.Sickening,but hey,that's how human actually works..
Eddy Outs
Looking around,there are many things that's actually making me curious.How things work and how things become.Its some sort of like when a kid ask their parents where babies comes from.Yet,curious as I am,I don't bother searching for the answer.Maybe I'm being too arrogant in thinking the answer will come to me.But most importantly is my laziness.Maybe what my brother keep telling is true.As time passes by,with all the technology and all the kids being spoil,laziness tends to be a 2nd nature to them.Us I mean.Sure,everyone is lazy at some point of time,but I noticed those born after the year 2000 seems to be worse. Labels: ..SIckeningTuesday, October 28, 2008
1st of all,they are totally spoiled to the point whereby they are rude even to their own parents.I may be rude,but hey,parents still deserve respect.I don't even dare to raise my voice when I was young.Now,I just raise my voice when they really gets on my nervous system.I mean,things do get out of hand when you're angry and all,but being rude to their parents all the time,its just unspeakable of.For gods sake,they were the one who brought you to life,the least you could do is show them respect.I guess,somehow,I do understand how parents feel.
Many a times,I see things that actually shocked me.Like an elderly being bang just because they walked slower than others.Kids misbehaving in public and their parents just ignores it.These kind of stuff are so common nowadays.Somehow,the worse behavior that really gets on my nerves are people just cutting queue and banging you like you're not there at all.This usually occurs when boarding the bus and all.Its like you're in front,and some guy just walks towards you push you to the side and stands in front of you like nothing actually happened.I mean,whats up with that? Sometimes I really just wanna pull them back and punch them in the face.But fight fire with fire actually brings no point at all.Haiz..Singaporeans,when will they ever change?
Eddy Outs..
Looking back,there are things I wish I have said sooner than wasted most of my time waiting for the right time.Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and undo all those wasted time.All the feelings I've kept were slowly killing me from the inside.Until to the point whereby I lose it and I realised it was too late to undo all the times.Slowly,I try to regain back all the self-esteem and there comes the same cycle again.I guess I'm just stupid to have wasted all this time for someone or something that could be seen but not there in front of my eyes. Labels: ..Yet Could Not Be SeenMonday, October 27, 2008
I guess what I'm trying to say is,I'm back to the same cycle again.Someone out there had my heart,and she's just too far to be reached.Yet,in my head,I realised that there is no way for me to get her.First of all,there are no signs of her having the same feelings.Who knows.in the near future,whereby I already have someone else in my mind.I find out that she have the exact same feelings as I did,only thing is its too late for me to do anything.I guess,theres no point of having the feeling when love has forgotten me.
Maybe its due to the previous relationship I had,ended up being the worse of all my relationship.Maybe,I have already given up on all this.Just maybe,its my fear of getting the same thing over again.Haiz..
Eddy Outs..
You know how many people have this saying,money is the root of all evil? Well,i agree to the fullest extend that it can't extend anymore. Whats the basic amount of money for a family to live a happy life 5-10 years back? 3k at least? Or around there if I'm not wrong.With that small amount,they can live a normal simple life with a few luxuries.Without any back pay or any debts to be paid off.Now let us see into the nearest of the nearest present. Labels: ..Cash Rule Everything Around UsSaturday, October 25, 2008
NOW,3k is just a bloody hell small amount of money whereby you live your life with all the basic needs only.Not much luxury and maybe a few debts here and there.What happened to the world? Somehow,the rich are actually getting richer,and the poor are just getting no better. Yea,sure the country and all around us are advancing,but where's the fairness? Prices of everything are going up and only up,whereas everyone's pay are still the same. No raise in the basic salary or whatsoever. The only way for people to survive this era is to work their ass off every single day just to survive the world's economy.
Haiz.Somehow,its getting depressing everyday.The more I think about the future,the more stress I am.Things that is planned out may never be reach.Things that's not to my liking is just round the corner.Its either I take it and just bare with it,or leave it and bear the consequences.How depressing can life be at this moment of time?
Answer is in each individual.For me,it really is depressing.
Eddy Outs..
Nothing better to do during NR,so went online and tried some IQ test.Surprisingly,the first test I did,my IQ is 149.Seriously,I was actually stunned.Who am I to be kidding?? Eddy? Having an IQ of 149?? You gotta to be kidding me.So it was kinda true,I took another IQ test and I got 140.Weird.But hey,its just a test.Was thinking of getting the real IQ test.See how much is the actual reading.Weird thing is,exams bores me,but these kind of online quiz or test is actually entertaining.Unless its related to what I'm studying,it would still be boring.Haha Labels: ..Surprisingly SleepyThursday, October 23, 2008
The day even better at night.Went to meet Shafiq just to hang out.In the end,there I saw Sharva,Ravin,Thilak and Jenny.Its been quite a while since I saw them.So went riding with them since the 3 of them have bikes.Went till 1 hr ago and now here I am just blogging coz I'm afraid I'll overshot if I sleep.Honestly,I can't wait to get my own license.Be it car or bike.Its convenient and fun especially when you're out with friends.Just the few of the guys,hanging out,going places that's far away from Woodlands.Somehow,Woodlands is getting too boring.Nothing much to be done here.Guess I'll just have to be patient.
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Labels: ..Conclude Sch SucksWednesday, October 22, 2008
Your EQ is 140
You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges.
You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others.
While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up.
But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.
Now that school re-open,back to the same cycle over and over again till the time where attchment comes and there goes another cycle.Sickening,yet,at least there's something better to do than rot at home.For now,its sch on weekdays,work on weekends and hang out at nights when all of us are not lazy.Somehow,due this weird schedule that I have,my sleep is compromised.I can't sleep normally now at night unless I'm super damn tired.Thus,the eye bag that everyone thought either kena punch,or big pimple.Haha. Labels: ..We Start To Think MoreMonday, October 20, 2008
Thinking bout it,somehow I'm the type that can't stay at home.Seems like I'm seeing more of the outside world than my own house now.Even when I'm suppose to be free,I'll just find something to do to get me out of the house.Even on weekends,I'll put my schedule for long hours and just come home to sleep or sometimes I'll just come home early in the morning.One thing I noticed is that the more I go out,the more things I learned.Though simple2 stuff,but hey,a gold is a gold ryte.No matter hw big or hw small.Its still valuable.Who knows,maybe one of the things I learned can actually safe my life.
Someone who I just met asked me one thing.What if you can earn 20k per month? My answer was worth it yes,but it also depends on the job itself.He kinda got curious,and asked why.So I explained to him,yes its worth it,but what if the job that pays you that high of an amount of money is not enjoyable to you? You'll just hate the job and drag your feet to work.He was quite shock.He shook my hand and actually said,I like the way you think.I mean,its true that the pay is good and all.But why go for the money when you can go for the enjoyment of the work.Its not worth it if your happiness is compromise isn't it? Different people have different opinion,what about yours?
Eddy Outs..
Take Care Siol!
I just don't get it.What will it take to get you out of my life? Isn't all the things I've said mean anything to you? Seriously,get a life.I don't need to wake up to a stupid msg that pisses me off every single morning.The world don't revolve around you,and I don't care what you want from me.Million times I've told you stop bothering me.But funny thing is,you don't get it and you're the one asking me to stop contacting you.Life,WTF?? Heck,I never did contact you.Somehow you're the freaking one who contact me,giving all this lame ass bullshit.How contradicting is that? When you tell someone not to contact you,it means you don't contact that person too.Or are you too dumb to understand what you yourself said? Labels: ..DO YOU FUCKING WANT??Thursday, October 16, 2008
Haiz.Just wanna let things out.Seriously I don't get it.1 person can be so fucking irritating and I just can't seem to understand why that particular idiot don't understand what I'm saying.I mean,does "Stop bothering me" means that you continue msging me? Haiz.Funny how 1 person can piss me off so terribly and ruin my mood easily.Actually,its not really funny,its more sickening than funny.I know,I'm being mean,but hey,if being nice doesn't get her out of my life,being mean is next.If that still doesn't work,I think I'll turn to the Hulk.Haha.
Nothing much to update.Other than letting out the anger.Feel much better now.
Eddy Outs
I just don't understand how these people live with themselves.I mean,whats the point of telling that you're coming when in the end you're not gonna turn up? Might as well just be honest and say you're not coming coz you're lazy or something.Better than standing someone up and just ignore every phone call.Just piss people off rather.Better to be straight forward than lie and make things worse.Really don't understand people now.Guess thats poly life. Labels: ..Another Person's GainWednesday, October 15, 2008
Basically nothing much,just went to watch yet another movie.This time around with Beng.Big Stan is kinda cool movie,funny and fun especially for those who likes fight scenes.Dunnoe whats got into me today,even before movie starts we were laughing our asses off.And NO,we're not gay if thats what you think.Haha.
Sometimes its just hard to know whether someone is smiling at you coz they're interested in you.Maybe I missed the chance,maybe I was just thinking too much.Doesn't matter,if its meant to be,den its meant to be.If its not,den so be it.Live still moves on.I guess I just came to a point where I don't wanna try to hard or get to involve with people.Just go with the flow,if things are to work out,den its all good.If things aren't working out,den too bad.Doesn't really matter,the world is full of people.Like I've said before,people come people go.Right?
Eddy Outs..
I really have no idea whether I'm being cursed in using technology.Somehow every single time I buy a new phone,mp3 or whatever,it will just give me fucking problems.First it was the N76,which I honestly thought it was a good choice.Well it is,though the outer cover is totally messed up.Then there was the China Phone,which I just bought for fun,now giving me problem due to some network problem.The best part is,my mp3 died on me.So had to use my PDA for songs which is okay,except for the big bulky thing in my pocket.Sickening.Maybe its time I stop buying any single technology.Haizzz... Labels: Take Care Siol..Tuesday, October 14, 2008
I seriously dunnoe what I can do to make you thing that I'm not joking.Told you an honest answer and you thought I was joking,told you a lie and still you wouldn't believe me.So,here's my way of getting your attention.Honestly,this is how I really feel.I fell for you when we started to get to know each other.I just didn't say a thing becoz i know you wouldn't bother.I dunnoe why you wouldn't believe me,maybe becoz I always prank u.Well,this is something that I dun wanna lie and I just wanna get of my chest.There's a lot of maybe,so here's another 1.Maybe I fell for you becoz well,u ARE cute.And maybe bcoz you kinda get my attention easily.So yea,I like you and all this while my msn nick was about you.Believe me? If not,I guess theres nothing much I can do..
Eddy Outs..
Hw depressing can sch be when it starts at 4?? The answer is,well depends on how you see it.One view would be,I don't need to wake up early and be stoning early in the morning while bathing with cold water.Rushing to class coz of jam at clementi.And of course suffering early in the morning just watching the lecturers talk and talk and talk all they want.On the other hand,reaching sch when everybody is going home.Telling you,it sucks.Everybody at the bus stop just waiting for the bus to come and they could go home and slack all they want.While I'm walking down the stairs and walking pass them just to reach sch and enter a stupid lecture theater for 2 hrs of lecture.Haiz.Oh well,at least I don't have to wake up early. Labels: ..Is it over yet? PlzMonday, October 13, 2008
Life couldn't be more bliss until to the point where someone just have to ruin it for u.I still don't get it.Every single thing I said just means giberrish to her.I mean,for the 4th time,can't she get the point that I'm not interested.I told her off 4 times and somehow,she keeps asking me the same questions.Honestly,it was irritating then,and its just getting worse NOW.God,I can't help it but just get this feeling of hate towards her.I know,its not good to hate people,but she's just getting on my nerves and maybe trying to get to my brain even.Haiz...
Back to waking up early and thinking of what to bring and trying not to sleep late or else I'll wake up late.Sounds really2 fun.I want my holidays back.....
Eddy Outs
Finally done with open house.Honestly,I was kind of piss of with my mum for telling me last minute.She only told me yesterday and I'm like wtf am I suppose to do?? Its not fair when you planned it long ago and just tell me now ryte? Hw am I suppose to invite my friends for raya?! That was what ran through my mind.But when I saw how my brother got really pissed off and treated my mum,I kind of pitied her.Its not fair for her too as she's busy with work and all,maybe the plan slipped through her mind. Labels: ..Still Is No Matter WhenSunday, October 12, 2008
So,went along with it and msg those who I have their no. Though last minute,quite a few turned up and make things better.Honestly I didn't expect that much of my friends to come.Especially my secondary sch friends.Though a bit sad they didn't ask me go raya along.Doesn't matter anyways.Wanna thanks Jovi and Adillah for coming from all one end just to come for the open house.Really appreciate it.Khai turned up and hang out till late.Kinda miss hanging out with him and all the stupid jokes we tell each other.Bring back some memories.Lol
Just 1 more day till school start.Monday start at 4-6,like wtf.Stupid timetable.Fucking waste my evening where I can just hang out with my friends and enjoy the night.But noooo,stupid school have to spoil that for me.But looking on the bright side,I can work on Sundays now.More work,more pay.Haha.What can I say,I need the money for my own pampering time.Lols.
Eddy Outs..
Honestly,sometimes parents just don't understand teens nowadays.They are always stuck in their own time,saying when THEY were young THEY didn't do this,didn't have that and blah blah blah blah blah!Let me emphasize on the "THEY".Its always about THEM,not about US.I mean come on,its already 2008,and things are different now.People change and culture change.When it was THEIR time,of course THEY can't come home late,for god sake THEY live in Kampung.Now its all HDB flats and there are more things to do.Of course teens nowadays wanna go home late.Haiz.. Labels: ..Still, they're my parents..Thursday, October 9, 2008
The most depressing thing right now is that I'm left with 3 days of holidays.For the past 6 weeks,I had attachments.And now I can't enjoy my pathetic 1 week of holiday because they keep nagging saying I'm always out.OF COURSE I'M ALWAYS OUT! I HAVE WORK AND ATTACHMENTS!! Sheesh..If you wanna blame someone blame the fucking school for giving attachments.Rather than you keep nagging at me,its time you guys use the time wisely and THINK about my feelings.Ok,now I'm just complaining..
Thinking back,there are many things that is about me that I get from them.The hasty decisions,the short temper,the stubbornness,well,especially the stubbornness.All the things that I am is because of them.Both the negative and positive.But there's one thing that I've gotten from living with them,the patience to tolerate a whole lot of bullshit from anyone.Honestly,if it wasn't for the patience that I have right now,I don't think I'm living in this house.Most probably gone to another country already.You can tell how bad it is just by hearing that right..Sickening
Eddy Outs..
Just got back from chalet.I meant,chalets.Had 2 chalet for 3 days.The first 1 was Adillah's chalet,at Pasir Ris Costa Sand,the other 1 was at Jurong East Chevrons.Honestly speaking,I'm freaking tired after the 3 days.Only had less than 3 hours of sleep in total.Plus the swimming and the bowling and the talking till late night.Fun for quite a while. Labels: ...Equals to tiring funTuesday, October 7, 2008
The 2nd chalet was quite a disappointment actually.Not because of the company but becoz of the lack of activities to do.Kinda boring after a while,but things worked out and had fun after that.Went bowling with Ben.Amir,Hafiz,Xiang Yang,Jia Hui and one girl.Though my thumb and back hurts,it was worth every single cent.Headed back home and here I am ranting,just waiting for my eyes to close so I could sleep soundly.All the way till tomorrow.Woots...:/
Just left with 5 days of holidays till school re-open.Kinda miss the school and all hang out friends.The chalet actually showed me how fun the people are.Crazy as they are.No offense guys.Right now,I just can't wait to enrol for car license.Waiting for the time where I get enough money,den there I go to learn how to drive.Seriously,as expensive as it is,having own transport is better than using public transport.Its faster,more convenient and most of all,more comfortable as not a single soul will push you in your own car and be kiasu.How it would be a bliss if I have my own driving license and my own car right now.Haiz..
Eddy Outs
Yesterday marked the last day of stupid attachment,for this month anyways.Had fun slacking though,didn't actually bother to help anyone.Just sick and tired of it that made me actually went back early.Finally freedom at last. Labels: ..But its overSaturday, October 4, 2008
Though nothing was planned,me and Black actually went to Sembawang park just to cycle around.Went to Kampung Wak Hassan to explore the area a bit,and yea,so a few stuff.Though wasn't midnight or anything,it sure was scary.Slack at the nearest kopitiam and just rest after like a few hours of cycling.My butt still hurts even though rested the whole night.Had one of those conversations with him and ended up talking till about 2 am before heading home.Was worth it though.
Somehow the conversation got me thinking.We can't make somebody change the way we want them to be.Different people have different character and sure some of their characters are not to our liking,but if they're friends,we just have to accept them for who they are.We adapt to who they are and accept it,its just up to them to get the point or not.Sometimes friends can be an asshole,a bitch or whatever you may call them.I know,coz I use to be one too.But things change and people change.It just takes time.In the mean time,all we can do is adapt to their ways and accept them for who they are until to the point where they realize it themselves and make the change.Life can bring quite a lot of surprises.You may never know whats coming next.
This year's hari raya is just not as fun as it was years back.Heck,it wasn't as fun as last year either.Maybe due to many being busy working and schooling.The mood is just not there when you are thinking about exams and stuffs at work.Sickening as it is,guess just have to bear it.
Eddy Outs
Been bearing for the past 5 weeks going in and out of hospitals just to work for them for free,and finally now,I'm just one more day from being free.No more hospitals to go to,no more CI watching your back,no more entertaining stupid shit you get from both the patient and visitors.Just one more day to freedom.Aaahh,how I miss it.Waking up late and sleeping late,hanging out with friends just to pass the time,doing nothing but rotting.The good old laying back and eating junk food the whole day.Haiz.. Labels: ..Yet 1 more week.Thursday, October 2, 2008
Yet,downside to it,I only have 1 week.Then back to school.Though I rather go school then rot at home with nothing to do.Though working would be fun but that means I'm stuck to waking up early and being tired,though with pay this time.Somehow,working life sucks.Leading to no real life like what we really have now.Hanging out with friends,going to new places.But when we really start a full time job,we end up seeing our workplace more than seeing our friends or family.Sickening when you think about it.
Addition to it,we can't live without money in Singapore.Standard of living is too high.For me anyways.How depressing can life be? Answer to that would be very.But hey,its how you live your life that makes things better.Everything have its pros and cons.You just need to focus on the pros more than the cons right? Well,sometimes its just to hard.
Eddy Outs..
First of all,I wanna wish to all Muslims,Selamat Hari Raya,Maaf Zahir dan Batin!! Labels: ..When Will I?Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Since I'm asking for forgiveness,might as well ask to all.I wanna ask for forgiveness for the things that I've done that might have hurt those out there,hope all my wrong doings be forgiven,and I would like to say sorry for the things that might not occured yet. Selamat Hari Raya Everyone.
2ndly,time does pass by just like that.It seems like yesterday that fasting month started.Now 1 month had passed and I didn't actually felt it.Maybe because of all the work and attachments.Guess being busy does have its advantages.
Its been a while since I blog,so maybe gonna rant quite a bit.
I can't believe I'm saying this,but I MISS TTSH!! Its not the environment of NUH that makes me sick,but the staffs there and somehow everyone there just aren't too friendly with students.And the transportation part just sucks! Takes 30 mins to wait for a bus,and the same time for cab too.WTF! Honestly,give me 6 wks of TTSH anytime rather than 2 wks of NUH.At least at TTSH I can visit my cousin.Haiz.
Somehow,I just don't get it.All the things I've said,done and showed are not enough.Maybe she is head of heels for me,but I just can't.Somehow its just hard to prove my point,maybe one day she'll understand,but right now,its just getting irritating.What will I do if somehow you text me at the wrong time and ended up she reading it? Is that your motive of saying all that? Haiz.Sometimes,I just can't understand.
Its kind of funny.Maybe I'll do the same thing if I really love the girl.I guess somehow I understand the feeling.I just wanna let things out.Coz every single time these kind of msges appear,I get frustrated.I guess I'm being too harsh.Haiz.
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