Heyz...As the title said,there was no mood for me today...Even now that I reached home...I tried my best to act normal,and I guess I did it...No one even noticed...Guess it was an achievement...Haiz...
The main thing is that,my fuckin ppd is low...And I can't message her...And I guess her phone is having problem coz I called 4 tymes before I gave up...All I got was there was error in connection...The M1 customer is not available..And its starting to piss me off..Not that I blame her or anything...And the only msg I get was in the morning..Haiz,juz hw I wish I'm fucking rich and can juz get money with a snap of the finger...Bloody hell,I would have used line instead of this fucking ppd...Haiz...So messed up...Hw I wish I could contact her..Juz hearing her sweet voice would make me sleep soundly...
It all ends her...
Moodless...
Unhappy...
Sucky...
Fuck Up..
Eddy Out...
Heyz...Back again...Ryte now waiting for Shafiq to call coz I asked him to accompany me to go buy my nursing shoe...Ytd didnt get to buy coz the shoe was over my budget...And I'm like wtf sia...Hahakz..Hw come he's taking so long...haiyo..Sunday, May 27, 2007
Well anyway,yesterday was a great day for me...Ferst of all met her at Bt n Shoes after her camp...Den accompany her go home..Since she tired I told her go sleep la..I'm goin Orchard anyways..If only she could follow..Well,anyways,so planned to meet Ayu at 430 which in the end I came at 4..So waited for bout 1 hr..But nvm...Its kinda nice to juz sit alone and look at ppl walking pass..hahakz
During that tyme,Cheryl said she goin to be 45 mins late...Sian arh...Nvm,didnt talk to her for a while..hahakz
Yea,so we walked around Suntec City before heading off to Esplanade..Me and Ayu were enjoying ourselves by making Cheryl paisey..haha..We followed Peter Parker in Spider-Man 3 when he was walking..Hahahahakz
Cheryl all the way kept quiet only..hahakz
Den we headed to Esplanade and meet up with Rudy,Arina,Khai and Farhana..So there were all those couples and I'm always alone..Nyeah,I got Ayu to hang out with..hahakz..When we reached Esplanade me and Ayu disturb Cheryl till she out of breath...hahakz
Wasted the 2 couples didn't stay till 9+...The fireworks was great...Me and Ayu were smilling all the way looking at the fireworks...Hahakz
Dats the end of the Esplanade/Orchard/Suntec trip...hahakz
But the great thing that made my day was chating with Syirah/Grams...Hehe..Dunnoe how but somehow I was laughing all the way while chattin with her...Evrytyme chat with her also confirm laugh..Hahakz..Oh wait,I hear my phone ringing...Should be Shafiq..
It all ends here...
Eddy Out..
Heyzz..Back again to talk bout life...Its been turnin okay I guess...Evrything seems to be turning on the positive side and no more on the negative side..Its like suddenly my luck has changed or something...Usual emo and mood swings turns to joy and laughter..And oh how I love this feeling...HahakzSaturday, May 26, 2007
Anyways,yesterday was a great day..Ferst of all went to sch like normal..Got CNP at 9am and Arina juz woke up during that time..Lucky Shu was there..So at least I got someone to hang out with...After the class went to CO-Op with Shu and met Arina there...So we headed for PAS which I don't really pay attention coz was busy hearing songs...Hahakz
Bah,the whole day was dull actually...The best part was the prank that Rudy did to Ayu...hahaha...It was like super clever la...Dunnoe hw he get the idea also..He wore Ayu's slipper and his slipper to cover it..It was like bloody genius...I myself didnt notice it at ferst...Ayu was like searching it evrywhere...Even went into the bangla store room to find...Hahahakz...In the end she sat and stomp like a baby...Quite cute la...Hahahahakz
Turning out to be more like her sayang sia...hahahahahakz...So in the end Rudy pass her back her slipper and we were all like laughing...She turn red sia...hahahahahakz
Lek arh Ayu...Its juz a joke..hehe
So yea,after all that happened we headed to SIM bus stop...Me,Arina and Rudy headed back home while the rest went to Giraffe...If I could I wanted to join but den at night got Silat training...And my syg went to camp so no point in goin Giraffe also..All got couple except me...hahakz
During Silat had practise for the Demo on 3rd June...Which is for my aunt's daughter's wedding...So like I team up with Shafiq to do a technique...Hopefully it will turn out fine...hehe
It all ends here..
Eddy Out..
Heyz...Finally back again...Didn't update coz been coming back home late...And today I came back quite early coz no mood to hang out with them...Not that its their fault or anything...Its nobody's fault..Juz that I'm juz having terrible mood swings and this stupid sore throat is juz makin it worse...HaizWednesday, May 23, 2007
So,nothing much happened...Juz the same old...Went skewl at about 8 and reached there about 9..So,juz in time for NSL..Went for NSL and its juz the same old stuff...Hear JK talked and talked...Den it was PAS and there was a test..And I didn't even know..So it was down the drain..Got zero as per normal...Haiz..Got cheered up a little by Cheryl...Me,Arina and Shu was eating at Megabites and she and Nabil came in..So we called them to sit with us..And she like slenge2 like that..Made me laugh..hahakz
Den after calling Her..I went to sleep for a while..And woke up with another mood swing..Dunnoe why..Dun wanna tell why...Dun wanna know why and dun give a damn why...Ok...Den when for AAP tutorial and it was so fucking dull..And nearly fell asleep..Lucky got Zara and Fiona to disturb..And found out that I'm having attachment at Toa Payoh Polyclinic with Zara...So at least got someone to go with...Phew...
And on 16 June I'm headin to Indonesia with my family..So gonna be boring and pointless...But at least Khai and Rudy is coming..So at least got some ppl to hang out with..Haiz..Gonna be there for bout 1 week..So once come back from Indon,about 2 to 3 days after that,its like my attachment already..So sian...Plus the attchment is all over...5 days at polyclinic,den 2 days at nursing home..Den 2 days at dunnoe where,1 day at dunnoe where also..Bah...Need to do something bout tiz sore throat...
Eddy Out..
How Deep Is Your Love-Take That
I know your eyes in the morning sun
I feel you touch me in the pouring rain
And the moment that you wander far from me
I wanna feel you in my arms again
And you come to me on a summer breeze
Keep me warm in your love and then softly leave
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me
I believe in you, you know the door to my very soul
You're the light in my deepest darkest hour
You're my saviour when I fall
And you may not think I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me
And you may not think I care for you
When you know down inside that I really do
And it's me you need to show
How deep is your love?
I really need to learn
'Cause we're living in a world of fools, breaking us down
When they all should let us be
We belong to you and me
How deep is your love?
Heyz...Juz here to release all my shitness away...Dun bother reading I guess...Haiz...Saturday, May 19, 2007
Anyways...Have you ever felt so down juz by a small thing? Well I am having it now...Dunnoe if its anything to ppl out there..But to me...Haiz..I dunno arh...So here it goes...
All I wanted was to meet you...All I wanted was to spent time with you...Yea sure,I know frends are important..Even I feel that way...The thing is,I asked wat tyme u finish...And YOU said u didnt know..Well okay,I understand that..But I told u to call after u finish..But u didnt..I juz wanted to know where u are..Hw u've been..Juz wanted u to call and hear your voice..And all I wanted was to say I LOVE YOU...I guess you're to busy..Yea sure,my ppd low..But I told u to call Arina or even Shafiq..And yes,I miz you...Sooo much...Is that too much to ask?
Not that I'm angry...Sometymes I juz think there's something you're hiding from me...Behind those sweet smiles,the kisses,the hugs...There's juz something you're not tellin me..Haiz...I nearly cried juz now..I didnt coz I know you're gonna feel hurt when you find out...And I dun wanna hurt you...
The thing is,I feel this way coz I'm afraid...I'm afraid that I'll lose you...Out of all the relationships I had,you're the ferst that I felt so happy...Such joy...I know this words means nothing...I could be lying..But its up to u to believe me..Maybe there's someone else in your mind...I dunnoe...All I could say if you find someone better than me,den go ahead..All I want from you is the truth..
Haiz...So depressed...I realli miz you...And I realli love you...Hugs and kisses always carebear!It all ends here...Eddy Out...
Heyz...Finally the blogger is back online..Bloody hell...Haiz...Okie..So,life is okay I guess..There's juz so much things to say and too little time to type it down..Gonna go ECP later and meet Rudy and Arina..So,maybe gonna be short..Wat the hell..Lets juz see aight...
Anyways,life been okay...Ups and downs are constant..Ferst of all,I wanna thank her for making me happy...:D..And I juz wanna say I'm sorry if anything ever happened that made her feel sad...I dun wanna hurt you..And the fact is,I'm really afraid..Terrified even..Juz by thinking of losing her makes me cry..I'm afraid that I'm gonna be played again..I dun wanna lose you..Really3 love you lots...
Hmm..School has been per normal..Nothing much exciting happen...Juz the same old..Sleep in class,do some stuff..Lepakz with the gangs...hahakz..Oh yea,I wanna thank my frends who have been there for me..Especially Arina,Cheryl and Ayu...Always make me feel happy...And of course Rudy..Who have always been there for me no matter what..:D
Haiz..Exams are coming in juz a few weeks tyme..I guess FON is down the drain coz been skippin lectures after lectures..Hahakz..Rudy even joine one of the lectures yesterday..Lol...Talking bout yesterday,it was great I guess..Started moody,den a lil sad,den happy again..Den very3 happy..hahakz..As per normal,morning woke up and mom started naggin...Saying I've been coming home later and later evrynite..Yea true,but its not that I'm doing stuff she doesn't want me to...And den reached skewl a lil happy..Coz meet all the funny ppl..Hahakz..Especially Ayu..:D...But started becoming sadded and emo coz she called and said she not coming..So spent like one hour juz sitting alone..Thinking...Haiz...But after talking to Rudy,things started to change..Funny stuff occured..Lol...Around 545,met my syg at Clementi..Den very happy already...Hehe..Who not happy when meeting the ones they love ryte...
At nyte got Silat,so went straight and didn't go home..As per usual,got sparing and all...Spa with Hussein and Rudy..My Syg wanted to spa but she got injured so postponed to next week...Phew...Hahakz..Den after training lepak for a while...Den send her back home...:D
Haiz..miz her soo much...Hopefully later she finish training early so can meet her...*Cross fingers*
Hmm..I guess thats it..I didn't know I could type very fast..hahahkzIt all ends here..Eddy Out..
Heyz...There's something fuckin wrong with the blogger system..So fuck it la..I can't use the normal font size I use..And this alignment sucks...So have to bear with it la...Thursday, May 10, 2007
Anyways...I've been having bad stomach aches and somehow I think la my apendix sumtin wrong..Yea,she ask me to go doc but I dun wanna...Waste money and tyme onli...Live have been so-so...Nothing interesting happened during the weekdays..Juz boring old stuff..And juz no mood this few days...Maybe coz I think too much or sumthing..Sometymes I juz cry alone at nyte..I dunno why..Maybe coz I realli miz her...And maybe coz I'm hurt...I dunnoe...All I know is that life is quite stressful now..Things are juz happening too fast...
Honestly speaking,I am happy to have friends who supports me...But sometimes things are not meant to be told..I try my best to tell evrything..But juz so you know,I have my own secrets to bear with...When I'm juz sitting quietly,dun mind me...My brain is juz to stress or maybe things happened...Mood swings come and go...Its not that I think the world revolves around me or anything..I juz wanna make things clear...Sry if anyone is hurt...
Yea,today was ok I guess..Joy and laughter,anger and sorrow...As per normal...I juz can't bear the thought of losing her...After what had happened and all..Haiz..Anyways,per normal,lepakz with twin bro,Ayu,Arina,Fizah...More tickling here and there...Fizah,sorry if I hurt your hand..Took the MZ9 training today..And I didnt realli did my best in teaching them..Sometimes personal stuff keeps coming in..Pluz 2 days nvr meet her...Maybe even gonna be more than that...I'm juz afraid of being hurt again..After what had happened with the 2 ppl...I juz lose confidence in myself and due to that I get hurt easily...To her,I'm sry if I keep
"merajuking" away...Its not ur fault..There's juz something wrong with me...But I dunno wat..Btw,dun be stress out too much aight..Chillax...
It all ends here...
Eddy Out
Ryte now no fucking mood...Fuck la..Still nid to go to skewl...Bah...Wednesday, May 9, 2007
I dunnoe whats wrong ryte now...Evrything seems to be in a mess...We were'nt that close yesterday...Something seems to be bothering her..And my body seems to be breaking down...Aches here and there...Sharp pain everywhere...Evrytyme I think of it,it seems all the fault is mine...But somehow I dunnoe whats my mistake...I cried again yesterday...And the day before..Eversince that day...I've been crying..And its not her fault..Its juz that I tink too much...I guess....
It all ends here..
Eddy out
Thursday, May 3, 2007
Not and update...Juz wanna say..Forget what I wrote...No use in thinking bout it...Not that I wanna be rude or anything...I guess its too fast..Forgive me...And I'm okay...And I lied to u,I'm nt sick or anything..When I was talking to u,I was crying...Sorry...Realli sorry...It all ends here...Eddy Out..
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
Heyz...Ok,I'm back!! Someone complained I nvr update..Hehe..Been lazy arh tiz few days..Plus evrytyme also my bro use..So sian arh...Ok,here's wat happened yesterday... 1 May-Labour Day...Not!So anyways,planned to go to Esplanade with Rudy,Ayu,Arina,Cheryl and Wei Ning..Which at ferst sucks,coz SOME PPL have to be late..So yea,woke around 8+ and juz happy2,coz thought she coming..But den in the end she cannot go coz go out with family..So sadded sia..Den around 12+ go out like no mood also...Hear songs until sian arh...Reached City Hall at 1255 and guess wat...Arina and Rudy still at Woodlands..At least Ayu was only 10 mins behind me..And the best part was that Dumb Blonde juz woke up...Pissed off sia..Alrdy no mood then one by one so late..Lucky got Ayu..hahakzShe talk crap to me until my mood come back..hahakz Thx ayu! So yea,in the end Rudy and Arina reached at 2..Den we go mkn2..Den me and Ayu all the way talk crap..ahakz..And FINALLLYYYY,Dumb Blonde and Wei Ning came..Which was at 4..hahakzSo yea,we walk around Marina Square..They all went to TopShop and me and Ayu dunnoe wat to do also..So we bough Chuppa Chupps..Hahahaha! We went to DB and WN and told them we came TopShop to buy sweets..hahaSo yea,it was quite fun..But would be great if she had come..hehe 2 May-??? Day...Nth much happened la..Basically the same old stuff in skewl..But Rudy came to NP juz now..So yea..It was okay i guess..Me,Mahathir and Ayu sat at 81 lvl 3 and sang Rudy HS's song..Hahahkz..He was like saying we busted and all la..But we juz heck care..Hahakz..But in the end we stop la..He make sadded face..Lol..Funny sia..haha..Den went to meet her!! Dat was the great part la..We went to Cwp and walk around for a while..She bought food for her mom and bro..So swit of her..Den after we sat at Titanic we headed back..Send her home..Hehe..And now finally updating.. It all ends here..Eddy Out