There are just some things that humans can't seem to see or predict.One of it is the future.What does our future bring? What will happen to us 10 years down the road? Will we be someone who we're not,or will we still be the same person as we are? Who knows what will happen,flying cars? Floating buildings? Imagination running a bit wild. Labels: ..Fear?
Honestly,thinking about the future makes me scared.Terrified actually.Looking at the rate that I'm going,and the results I'm getting,I just don't think I'll be someone.Looking at my options,somehow none of it can be reach. I mean,Toronto University?? I'll be lucky if they even want me there.Paramedic? Maybe,that is if I can get into Civil Defense during NS. I guess some of the things are just near but yer too far for me to reach. Many people said that if you don't try,you'll never know. Yea sure,I agree,but look at the circumstances,I don't think I can do it even if I try. Sure,giving up now is just a lost battle.Haiz..I just don't know what to say.
Changing topic.Sometimes I wonder what happen to all those that I know.Some of them change,or maybe just showed their true colors.Some just act like I'm a stranger,even worse.I guess in this world,its just hard to know who your real friends are.Those who are nice to you might have another motive.Some are just being nice in front of you but not behind you.Some are just plain bitches/bastards but actually they're not that bad.I guess what I'm trying to say is,its just hard to find true friends.Not in this time anyways.
Eddy Outs..
Look back and think,were there any small things that you would want to change? The mistakes that you did,either big or small? The friends you want to make but was just to shy? I guess,everyone would want the same thing,just to undo things that were done and do things that should have been done. Labels: ..With No RestartThursday, November 20, 2008
But reality hits us like a boulder falling from the sky. Life is not a game,you can't hit the restart button and start all over just because you make a mistake. All we can do is just move on and try to stop ourselves from making the same mistake again. If that mistake affected someone,all we can do is say sorry. Whether that person accepts it or not,its up to them,not us to judge.
I guess there are things that we can't do to change things around us. You can't just tell god "Hey All Mighty up there,bring me back to when I was young with all my memory intact so I can relive my life.Thx dude!". Its not a cartoon nor a comic book where turning back time is possible,where life is just so perfect. All we can do is accept it,not make things worse by trying so hard to lie to ourselves. Face our fears and embraced it,not run away from it.
Eddy Outs..
Finally turned 18 yesterday.So fast time flies.I still feel like I'm 17 though.I wonder why many people keep bragging when they turn 18,I rather stay young then grow old.Maybe becoz 18 is the year where things starts to get legal.Hmm.. Labels: ..And LEGALMonday, November 17, 2008
Well,reached home at around 7++.Not really sure what time.Was too sleepy since a few days came home in the morning.Opened the door and there my dad sitting and shouting happy birthday.Haha.Was kinda touched as they usually forget when my birthday is.So had breakfast with them and mom asked about me taking driving license.Heck,I don't have the money yet,hw to take.After breakfast,mom and dad gave me money as birthday presents as they don't really know what to buy for me.So,in the end got 70 bucks to spend.So,most probably gonna save for the enrolment at BBDC.
So,basically slip the whole day,till about 4.Woke up and had my b'day cake.Chocolate truffle.Freaking nice.Went dinner with frends and now back to blog about it.I know that its kinda stupid to blog about the day,bt I just have to get it out of my system.Its really fun.Haha.Oh well,eyes getting tired,and my pillow is just calling me back.Nytes everybody.
Eddy Outs..
Been watching movies,sitcoms and comedy through the comp.Somehow,I realize somethings after every shows.Its one thing that many people wants,yet its really hard to achieve.Only through the movies or tv shows that we could feel this significant feeling.The feeling whereby each and every one of us wants yet we can't actually get it.The feeling of true happiness. Labels: ..Not MoviesMonday, November 10, 2008
The feeling whereby we find that person.The one that brings happiness,joy and all things good to our life.The person who knows us for who we are and accept it no matter how bad we are.The person who change our life totally and makes things perfect even though things are just not right at that moment.The person who makes us look forward to having a family and showing nothing but love.The one person who can just look you in the eyes and know what you are thinking about without you having to say it at all.
The type of person that only exists in movies.The one person who we can only be brought by the media.
Watching the shows,it make me feel kinda depressed.How will I ever find the one.How can life be less miserable and just be perfect like in the movies.How can life have a perfect ending.These things run in my head and I just realize that it won't happen.Reality hit me and I just know that movies are made up and its nothing compared to the real world.Life can never be like the movies,life will always have problems not like in the movies.No matter how hard we try,life is just life.It can never be perfect like in the movies.I guess the medias really make us human feel more pathetic than we already are.Who knows,maybe one day our life can be like the movies and not just be another pathetic crap that we face everyday.
Eddy Outs..
School is really making me stressed out.Common test are round the corner,practical is nex week,projects are due.Apparently I'm just not prepared.Not for the common test,not for the practicals.Screwed as usual I guess.Time seems to be moving too fast.It seems like only yesterday that I started school and now its already 1 month since school started.Honestly,I don't have any freaking idea whats going on.Ok,maybe a bit of whats going on.Haiz.. Labels: ..Like TimeSaturday, November 8, 2008
I guess theres no time for me to play anymore.Gotta be more mature in all this and start preparing for the future.Looking around,seems like everyone knows exactly what they want.University,working,overseas.And all I've got is just going for something that is near.All I want right now is just to get the diploma and think bout it after that.Most probably it will be too late by then.Argh,the more i think bout it,the more stress up I become.Change topic...
Somehow,those that I thought would be someone I could rely on turns out to be those who are self-centered.I just don't get it,feels like they are just using me.I know,that sounds gay,but get the big picture aight.I just don't get it,honestly.I mean,I know I can't expect them to be what I want them to be,but hey,at least have the courtesy to be a friend.Not someone who pangsey at the last minute,not someone who lie just to get something that they want.Just someone who's there when you need them you know.Forget it,most of the people around me are like that.Guess I'm pathetic.
Eddy Outs..
Rain,the wonders of nature.Yet,the one thing that got me sick.Haiz.Somehow,they should really place shelters in each neighborhood.All due to the rain,now I'm really2 sick.Sick of being sick,sick of school,sick of everything.Head spinning just making things worse for me.Paracetamol wasn't much of a help.I just need her!! Labels: ..Sucks seriouslyMonday, November 3, 2008
Haiz.I guess old crushes really stays in the heart.I had wasted my chance too much,should have grab it when I had it.Now,I seem to be trying to hard to get her.Yet,I can't seem to get to know her feelings.Maybe coz I don't see her at all since she left sch,and we seldom contact each other,except through msn.Plus,she's always seem busy with stuff.How I wish I have the guts to just go ahead and tell her how I feel.Guess wishes don't come true easily.
Walking around,i see how stupid and disgusting certain singaporeans are.I mean,first of all,would you want someone sitting beside you to clip the nails in the bus?? I mean,you have a home to do that for,go home and do it,don't do it in public and let all your freaking disgusting nails jumping on others.2ndly,whats up with parents letting their child pee beside the road or in the bushes?? Whats the freaking use of a toilet for?? I mean,theres a public toilet in every MRT station.How stupid can these ppl can be.Sickening..
Eddy Outs...