Boredom really strikes during the weekdays.Everyone started school and all.Others working while the rest just prefer to hang out with their other friends.So I stay at hom just rotting away,hoping that the pass by much more quicker and school just reopens again.Plus,staying home with some crazy lunatic sometimes can be a deathwish.Especially with my wound.Haiz..
Sometimes,I think too highly of her.Always saying she's this,and she's that,but the truth is,it all means nothing.She's onli there to taunt me in my sleep,haunting every inch of me.And I stand there wishing that it's all over.Hoping that without me saying anything,she'll know and make the move.Guts is something I'm short of right now.After all my past relationships,I'm just afraid,scared even shivering due to the fright of getting rejection.I told Ayus before,I don't think I can stand another heartbreak.Thus,the reasons I keep things to myself.Better to be this way than end up with a broken heart and emotionless.
I try not to think about this burden I have.Just let it go and things will be okay.Words that I myself don't actually believe.And I stay home just wondering what I should do.The more I think about it,the more I fall.Its like a pit of nothingness.No endings,no bottom.Just continue falling and falling till the point of no return.And when I thought I've reached my goal,I hit the ground.Thats how I feel.Haiz..
Eddy Outs..