Been awake since ytd,can't really slept due to some people asking me out at the wrong time.Good thing had a nap ytd afternoon.Yet its kinda weird,I don't remember some part of the day.Remembered the appointment at TTSH,den I tink I fell asleep or something,bt I woke up at home.Guess he's back..Haiz..
Been telling Ayus about it since she's the onli person I trust to tell this too.And yes,other than her,there are ppl who knew,but I didn't tell Black.Weird..
Maybe its true,maybe I've been bottling up things.All the anger,sadness,depression,maybe even denial.But consciously I don't feel anything.I laugh and all,trying my hardest to be happy,yet emptyness is still there.I realli don't know what to do with myself.And dun even try to ask me go psychiatrist,I had enough of them.2 years of appointments were more than enough.
Maybe all these feelings are just psychological.It doesn't exist in reality.Its just my personality,nt being use to having so much fun.I guess thats it,bt it still doesn't explain why he come back now.So far nothing bad happened,I think.Its just so complicated.I want a simple life yet nothing seems so easy.Haiz..
The higher I climb,the harder I'll fall.
The harder I fall,the more I'm hurt.
Thats the reason its all bottled up.
Eddy Outs