A question I've asked myself for a long time now..Do I think too much? And it hits me that I do,if not,why am I thinking bout it.I guess thats why I turn out to be this way.Someone who uses sarcastic remarks just to make people laugh so that they won't know the real me.I guess its part of me that I don't know about.Being this way is just who I am.And when I think about something,I just don't know when to stop,when to talk,or even when to let it out.Maybe thats the reason I'm always so-called emoing,keeping quiet and like many people say not smilling.
Usually I don't even know what I'm thinking about.Whats in my mind,whats bothering me.And the more I think about stuff,the more things hits me.I guess maybe I'm mentally unstable.I will try to get the every simple solution and yet question myself again.Haiz..
It bothers me how my own thinking affects people around me.Maybe becoz of what I did,we started drifting apart.Making them not liking me for who I am.If its true,I guess I'm the one who's suppose to apologise,not just act like I don't give a damn.I've made a lot of mistake back then and I'm sorie.If its realli my fault,I just wish that someone show it to me instead of showing that I'm not welcomed.I know I rather be alone,rather keep things to myself,maybe even become a hermit,but they made me feel like I could be open to them,but knowing myself,I won't be open unless they start the conversation.
I'm juz babbling now...I guess I'm meant to be a loner...Haiz
Eddy Outs..