Heyz..Eddy here..Been a while since I updated..Somehow this blog juz doesn't make any sense anymore..SOME ppl are too busy to write in the blog but yet so free to skip classes and hang out with their frends..Guess waiting for that is like waiting for snow to fall in singapore..Yea,as u all can see or read,I'm not in a very good mood..Wanna know why? I actually dunnoe myself..
Its been 1 week and I'm still trying to figure out what went wrong here..Is it due to the fact that you lied to me,or is it something else? But I dun think I'm still angry bout the lying part..So what is it? Oh wait,is it about not spending time with me? Nah,I dun tink so..Coz I told you I won't bother if you're always busy..Hmm,so what the hell is wrong with me..let me think...Hmm,is it coz we rarely talk to each other about stuff? Oh no its not,coz its my fault for keeping quiet..And it's me who is changing..Yea,its always me..Always me doing something to make things worse..Always me who can't take jokes..Always me who ruin someone else's day..
Sumtymes I juz wish you could read my mind..Juz understand how I feel when you say things..I dun understand it..Yesterday,I juz sat and think to myself..Whats the purpose of me fetching you from work? To spend time with you,to talk to you,to meet you..And what happened,ouh yea,u wanna hear ur songs..U wanna play games...And u expect me to say wat? "I wanna talk to you so dun hear song"? I didnt knw my silence was so oblivious..I'm kinda hurt inside..you said 4 days was too long..But there were so many days that I spend time alone coz you were too busy with skewl and stuff..I know we talk it over but that doesn't mean I'm not hurt..That doesn't necessarily mean that I won't feel a thing...
I thought I would see something..Juz something that would say u wanna spend time with me at least before I go..But nothing..I look at you and nothing..You dun wanna talk about it and all u did was say how long it is..I knw its long and I can see you dun want me to go..But all I'm asking is a sign,juz something that show me hw you realli feel...Show hw true and honest you are to me..Haiz..Sometimes I juz get the thinking if we could make it...Other rimes I juz think of moving someplace else..Juz get my feet back on the ground...Haiz..Forget it,by the time you read this it won't matter anymore..Most probably by the time you read this we would be back to normal..Juz dun keep anything from me...Once you read this,tell me..
Eddy Outs..
Moodless....