Heyz..Eddy here..Juz got home from the bank..Dunnoe whats on my mind,juz can't seem to think clearly..One of those times I guess..Depression is coming to town..And it sucks..Silence is all that keeps me accompany..Theres juz some things I wanna let out..
Been having these weird dreams..You were there..He was there..You know who he is..And I cried yesterday becoz of what you said..You had the same exact dream,and it scares me..I know it was juz a dream..And ytd I read your diary,and I don't understand it..Hw could you have the most memories with me when you're so happy with Padi..Hw can I ever be more than him when he had your heart..I know its the past and I know we're together now..But it scares me..I can't slip peacefully..Especially after reading your last entry in your diary..Haiz..
I know we're happy now..And yes I'm happy too..But like I said before..Happiness last onli during the moments..I can't change how I am inside..Its juz who I am..The same old moody,depressed,sadded Eddy since last time..I may look happy outside..But onli those who I'm close to understands..
Ryte now,noone is home..Juz sitting alone waiting for time to pass me by..I can't wait to meet you..Honestly,how I wish you didn't work..But thats juz unfair..Oh well..As long as you enjoy your work and you're happy with it,I'm happy too..I guess I'm juz being selfish when I get angry with you for not contacting me..
Bah,its the past..No point in thinking bout it..Move on Eddy,it alrdy happened no point of being this way..Forget it,you alrdy forgive her..Let it be!!
Hmm..Nothing much to update actually,everyones busy with attachment,work and sch..So all I do is stay at home and stone..Thats all I do nowadays..Not eating much,I dunnoe why..Juz don't seem to feel hungry..How I wish ryte now is my attachment..At least got something better to do..Bah..
Eddy Outs..
Moodless,Bored,Missing you..