Here's another update for tonite/morning...Juz pissed,sad and heartbroken i guess..
Haiz..All I wanted was honesty...Is that too much to ask? I can't say anything bout drinking coz I knw hw it feels..Evryone around u drink and u dun wanna be the odd 1 out..But,u're the only gurl for god sake..U know what I'm thinking..Anything can juz go wrong..Thats why I didn't want you to go...
I told you I'm goin out..And yes I did..I juz came back 5 mins ago...If you wanna know,I didn't do anything stupid..I had to clear my mind..Get my feet back on the ground..My mind is full of questions...But hw would I know if you are tellin the truth? After what had happened? Should I really trust you? I know this relationship needs trust and honesty,but hw can I be sure you're doing the same?
Sure,I did a few mistake myself..But at least I told you eventhough it was a few days late..Coz I dun wanna lie to you..Dats y I brought the topic up..I wan you to know what I did..Haiz..I was fine when you told me bout hanging out with ur frends..But nw I found out you drank and got drunk..I tried to understand..But I juz can't seem to understand why u didn't tell me you were the onli gurl..Is that too much to ask? Haiz..
If you read this,it would be already long after this..And I know we'll be okay by then..But if u do get pissed by reading this,dun avoid that feeling..Juz tell me..Coz here's the reason I wrote it..
1. I wanna tell hw I feel,but too afraid to tell you personally
2. I juz wanna write it down so that I'll get over it
Thats juz it..No point of thinking of the past,I juz hope that we can last..
Honestly,that song I wrote was for you..And I meant it..
Eddy Out..
Feeling "Haiz"