Here's another update for tonite/morning...Juz pissed,sad and heartbroken i guess..
Haiz..All I wanted was honesty...Is that too much to ask? I can't say anything bout drinking coz I knw hw it feels..Evryone around u drink and u dun wanna be the odd 1 out..But,u're the only gurl for god sake..U know what I'm thinking..Anything can juz go wrong..Thats why I didn't want you to go...
I told you I'm goin out..And yes I did..I juz came back 5 mins ago...If you wanna know,I didn't do anything stupid..I had to clear my mind..Get my feet back on the ground..My mind is full of questions...But hw would I know if you are tellin the truth? After what had happened? Should I really trust you? I know this relationship needs trust and honesty,but hw can I be sure you're doing the same?
Sure,I did a few mistake myself..But at least I told you eventhough it was a few days late..Coz I dun wanna lie to you..Dats y I brought the topic up..I wan you to know what I did..Haiz..I was fine when you told me bout hanging out with ur frends..But nw I found out you drank and got drunk..I tried to understand..But I juz can't seem to understand why u didn't tell me you were the onli gurl..Is that too much to ask? Haiz..
If you read this,it would be already long after this..And I know we'll be okay by then..But if u do get pissed by reading this,dun avoid that feeling..Juz tell me..Coz here's the reason I wrote it..
1. I wanna tell hw I feel,but too afraid to tell you personally
2. I juz wanna write it down so that I'll get over it
Thats juz it..No point of thinking of the past,I juz hope that we can last..
Honestly,that song I wrote was for you..And I meant it..
Eddy Out..
Feeling "Haiz"
Heyz...Finally updating..Been busy with stuff..Practical exam coming,exams coming..So many shit coming into my life...Dunnoe what crap is happening..Things juz doesnt feel ryte..Saturday, July 28, 2007
Haiz..Read the title and u know my life is full of crap,fuul of nonsense and full of shit...Sure,frends are around to support me..Brothers are there to help me out..But there's no point...Sometymes I need to stand on my own 2 feet...The onli thing is,evrytyme I stand on my own 2 feet,something juz seems to fuck up my life...
Sure,life is full of up n downs..But ryte now,it seems tat life is juz goin down...The momment when it goes up,shit happens...It usually juz goes up when i'm with my bros and frens..Haiz..Wat the fuck is goin with me??Surrounding seems to change a lot..Ppl juz dun really care...
WHen things Are ryTe,oTHEr things juz comes to crash it..Haiz...I guess it ends here..No point of thinking bout it too much..It would juz make matters worse..
Eddy Out..
Juz waiting when things would turn ryte..
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ISFP)
Your personality type is caring, peaceful, artistic, and calm.
Only about 7% of all people have your personality, including 8% of all women and 6% of all men
You are Introverted, Sensing, Feeling, and Perceiving.
Your Love Life is Like Casablanca
"Kiss me. Kiss me as if it were the last time."
For you, love is never finished. If you've loved someone once, you'll always love them.
You're an old fashioned romantic... even if your relationships don't end up as romantic as you'd like.
Your love style: Traditional and understated
Your Hollywood Ending Will Be: Complicated and ambiguous
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Your Life is Better Than 55% of All People
Your life is pretty average, with lots of normal ups and downs.
You're on the way to having a better life, as long as you focus on what's really important.
Remember to take the time to do the things that you like best, and let the little things slide.
No one on their deathbed ever wished that they spent more time worrying or complaining!
Never Date a Cancer
Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches.
And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return.
Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius
You Are a Centaur
In general, you are a very cautious and reserved person.
However, you are also warm hearted, and you enjoy helping others in practical ways.
You are a great teacher, and you are really good at helping people get their lives in order.
You are very intuitive, and you go with your gut. You make good decisions easily.
You Are An INFP
The Idealist
You are creative with a great imagination, living in your own inner world.
Open minded and accepting, you strive for harmony in your important relationships.
It takes a long time for people to get to know you. You are hesitant to let people get close.
But once you care for someone, you do everything you can to help them grow and develop.
In love, you tend to have high (and often unrealistic) standards.
You are very sensitive. You tend to have intense feelings.
At work, you need to do something that expresses your personal values.
You would make an excellent writer, psychologist, or artist.
How you see yourself: Unselfish, empathetic, and spiritual
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Unrealistic, naive, and weak
Your Career Type: Artistic
You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.
You would make an excellent:
Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor
The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.
Heyz...Finally back again..Yea,too lazy to update la..Plus tired from attachment..Hehe
Ok,about the indonesia thingy,juz ask me la..Too lazy to type it out la..Plus it was like 2 weeks ago,so no point in writing bout it ryte?
Hmm..Something changed me...I dunno whether I'm a better person or I've worsen,but one thing for sure,I'm still me deep inside..So emo sia..Hahakz..Well anyways,attachments are over,finally! Its like so freaking boring at the Toa Payoh Polyclinic...Plus sooo freaking far from my house sommore..Haiz..Guess wat the year 2 and year 3 said were true,POLYCLINIC ARE BOOOORRINGGG!! Hahakz..O well..Its all over now..Sch's starting nex week...Back to theory and more lectures..So Sian!
Hmm,relationship wise,nth much to update...Still the same old...Confuse and afraid...Haiz...Forget it,there's nothing much to gain by juz feeling like that..Might as well face it..One thing that is for sure,realli2 miz sch frends!!! Mahathir,Ayu,Cheryl,Thanda,Fiza,Arina....On Monday muz meet them all already! Haiyo..Miz u all guys!!!
Hmm...Anyways,tiz few weeks been realli busy..Monday and Tuesday are the only days that I'm free..Except the weekends la..Of course that one free..hahakz..Yea,Wed,Thurs and Fri got training at night...Need to be physically fit sommore..Aiyo...
Oh well,since Ace said not to update long2..I won't..Haha..I guess thats it..Update this junk again some other tyme I guess..
It all ends here..
No more turning back..
Eddy Out