Heyz...Back again...Maybe an update bout today...Maybe not...Lets juz see..I nvr plan anything for any of the updates..Hahakz..Woot,finally I made myself laugh...Sheesh..
Ok,so today was a boredom...Went to meet up with Hirzi and Shafiq..Juz chilled out under the block doing nothing but talk crap...Den we headed to my house to play monopoly...Yea as usual I lost la..Kinda bad with money and planning...And now,updating tiz junk juz trying to make myself busy...Dun wanna feel the way I'm feeling ryte now..Haiz..
Ryte now so moodless..Dunnoe why..Juz can't seem to understand what's wrong...Plus ppl keep saying what I'm doing is a mistake..What I did was a mistake..What I should do is like this and like that..Not that I'm not appreciative or anything...I realli thank evryone who gave me the advise..The thing is,the more I hear bout it the more hollow I feel...Its like one by one the feeling is gone...Happyness,all the smiles,the cheerful jokes..All gone now...Juz being moodless me...It sucks!!! Haiz...
I dunnoe what to say...The thing is,I looked all around me...My frends leads an easy life...They tell the gurl/guy their feeling and BAM!..
Eddy: Who's he/she?
Person: My guy/gurl.
Even without doin anything...They get a partner...Not that I'm complaining or anything...Thats juz hw i feel..I go out with her and sometymes we have to juz let go of each other coz got someone we both knw...
Person: Who's he?
Syg: My bestfrend
U knw hw fucked up that feel...We hug,we kissed and still i'm juz a frend...Anytyme u could do that with another person..And if I asked why do that? Easily u could juz say we're juz frend...I juz get scary thoughts...I dunnoe now..Sure I love u..But seriously,would I juz waste 3 years of waiting juz to play with your heart? Not that I'm saying ur acting that way...But I juz feel that way...Haiz..
And I guess I'm being selfish by saying all this..But do freaking deserve to feel tiz way? Bah...forget it..I'm sorry I said all this...Sry to those who have to bear with this update...All I could say,no matter what happens,u'll always be my bestest frend...And always my syg in heart...
It all ends here...
Eddy Out...